(Photo from here)
People have been asking when I was going to have another one, and I've been telling them I want to be un-pregnant for our annual trip to Bear Lake so I can tube and water ski, unlike 2008 when I just had to watch everyone have all the fun. (Selfish, maybe, but I really look forward to that trip!) But after all this talk of babies, I've been wondering if I just want to get the show on the road...
Then, I thought I really was pregnant. For 4 days.
Two pregnancy tests, lots of stress, worry, and a couple of nights tossing and turning before I fell asleep (it didn't help that I was sick) and I've decided that I'm not quite ready yet. Maybe part of it is that vacation of boating paradise. Maybe it was that I kept thinking I was totally gypping Harvey out of all my attention too soon. I worried that Justin and I wouldn't have the time or money to finish the basement if I was pregnant. I worried about tending for my nieces; as we fill up every seat in my Camry even without a new baby. But really, all of those things would have worked out, and they don't matter that much. What it really comes down to... is that I'm not quite ready.
But I'll get there. Probably soon.
Just know that if you were to have been pregnant that you would have handled it great. Landen was 8 months old when I got pregnant with Seth and when I found out a month later I freaked out, but guess what? I love it, they are best friends and I am so glad that they are close. I'm glad that you are not prego for your sake because you don't want to be but I know that if you were you would be fine because you are such a fabulous mommy!!
ReplyDeleteI was not ready for a while and then it seemed like one day I just was. And now we are having a baby in 2 months. You will know when you are ready. And I think that being ready is very important.
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