(Photo from here)
People have been asking when I was going to have another one, and I've been telling them I want to be un-pregnant for our annual trip to Bear Lake so I can tube and water ski, unlike 2008 when I just had to watch everyone have all the fun. (Selfish, maybe, but I really look forward to that trip!) But after all this talk of babies, I've been wondering if I just want to get the show on the road...
Then, I thought I really was pregnant. For 4 days.
Two pregnancy tests, lots of stress, worry, and a couple of nights tossing and turning before I fell asleep (it didn't help that I was sick) and I've decided that I'm not quite ready yet. Maybe part of it is that vacation of boating paradise. Maybe it was that I kept thinking I was totally gypping Harvey out of all my attention too soon. I worried that Justin and I wouldn't have the time or money to finish the basement if I was pregnant. I worried about tending for my nieces; as we fill up every seat in my Camry even without a new baby. But really, all of those things would have worked out, and they don't matter that much. What it really comes down to... is that I'm not quite ready.
But I'll get there. Probably soon.